September 21st, 2023
the forgetting feels like losing embodiment
retroactive out of body experiential consciousness-
but I was there.
I did ground.
not in the same way as now, maybe not as well-
to disgrace the young self and her being
by remembering the forgotten as disengaged
snatches away the little autonomy of thought that she
clung so desperately to.
It is okay to not remember fully,
It is okay to forget.
The self which is now formed
has not all the information
is not all the prior selves
feels not all memory as current-
I leave her there, in beauty of being, in all that she was
and honor her journey, commend her perseverance, praise her existence
though she may be forgotten in parts
her unabridged sum has formed me